Day 28 (Jan. 28th, 2015) - Something that you miss.
Aw, something I miss? Hmm...I miss the good old days when I could just hang out with friends and didn't
have to worry about school work being pushed back or anything, or when I wasn't panicking about getting
into college and when I was more innocent to life.
But I guess that those are the things that made me grow up more and made me feel like I actually could
take on the adult world at my young age. They've given me the friends that I have now, the confidence
and courage that I have now, and I don't think I would really want those to change, no matter how much it
hurt to get this point.
Something that I definitely miss, for sure, is my parents actually letting me do things without worrying about
me all the time. I haven't had my phone for 2 years now because they worry too much about me doing
stuff. And I know that sounds bratty and they just care for me and all that, but then they get a little upset
when they think that none of my friends care about me because they don't call me on my house phone and
it's kind of hard to explain to them that most people either text or IM nowadays.
But what's a gal to do
about it? I'll just wait until I graduate and they have to give me one because I'll be going off to college. I'll
probably end up paying for it and whatnot, but I can do it. I am going to get that Barnes&Noble job, no
matter what I have to do or where it is, I will get that bookseller job.
Tomorrow, I'll be setting some goals for myself for this next month and hopefully, I can go through with
them. (Oh, little aside for you guys, just a little update about my life, I might have gotten this one guy
at my school into some serious civil court juju by telling my principal that he was speeding and running stop signs by my school's elementary section's parking lot. The next day, he told me that he knows he broke about 4 different traffic laws and then the day after that he tells me that the school's trying to get him on vaping charges but they don't have enough evidence so they're trying to get him on the traffic law violations, even though he didn't do anything seriously wrong. So yeah, that happened this last week. And so many of my friends at school are siding with him just because they think he's properly exercising his rights. I on the other hand think that they are all wrong and that he is just exercising his stupidity. If your tires squealed, it means you peeled! If you don't halt at the stop sign, it means you ran the freaking stop sign! If there are three different witness accounts all saying that you did something you weren't supposed to and you try to prove that you're not guilty, it's not going to work out very well! Stop being a freaking baby and learn to accept that you've done something wrong, you moron! *Angry rant is now over*)Day 29 (Jan. 29th, 2015) - Goals for the next 30 days.
Complete another 5 artworks
Practice audition monologues for at least 10 minutes every day
Memorize partner scene for drama class a little bit every day
Get first video edited
Finish learning how to play "Someone Like You" accompaniment on the piano and violin
Love more, laugh more, smile more
Get some more brainstorming done (gamer-dragon
, we should work on that...)
Get closer to graduating with better grades so colleges don't kick me outDay 30 (Jan. 30th, 2015) - Your highs and lows of this month.
So I've had a good number of highs, but an almost equal number of lows this month. So I'm going to start
by listing the lows so that I can end on a much higher note.
I've got some minor, not-really-visible abrasions around my neck from a belt that I recently tried to off
I might be losing a close friend of mine because he's been really bitter towards me (I think he's just
being a tad bit whiny because he doesn't have a special female that he can consider to be near and
dear to him)
I had a tiny relapse not too long ago
I've been getting into more fights than usual (not physical fights, no, those days are over for me)
The once very clear line of who I can really call my friends has blurred a tiny bit
But don't let all of this depressing stuff get you down! I've had some good days this month!
I got to make gamer-dragon
a Jell-O cake for his birthday
I've been able to hang out with my friends a lot more
There are actual tiny people who actually love seeing me
I've gotten a tiny bit more courageous in talking to people now (THANK YOU hanging around my best
friend a lot and drama class!)
I have a "bae" now (I use this term sarcastically, of course, but she's a friend of mine that I got to
bond with this month)
I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH THREE DIFFERENT CRISIS COUNSELORS!!!!
I don't really have anything else, I just really wanted to use this piggy bullet point because.....bullet
This was really fun for me to do, because each one of these made me think. Some of them were easier than
others, and some of them were sillier than others, but all in all, this was actually really fun.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, if you have been. Love you guys!!